Grown Children
1/16/2023
What happens to our hearts when they push away?
Not just push, but push with the integrity of their 8 year old, or 13 year old self
It feels like arrows shot at close range
tearing through flesh and piercing the heart
Our children always bear some pain, as we did
from the pages of their childhood, never perfect
torn out and thrown at us one by one
I am not alone
I know I cannot be alone in this darkness
Wadded into a ball and shot like a slingshot
pages from the past
and so I
re examine the past
Vulnerability
traumas relived
Past cannot be re written
the goodness, richness and sacrifices cast aside leaving only the sad bits to rehash
I long to be seen for every bit of it
not just what hurt
A multitude of treasures lie in wait
that trunk must open too
the gems on those pages are ready for viewing
thick with story and wonders galore
Not just push, but push with the integrity of their 8 year old, or 13 year old self
It feels like arrows shot at close range
tearing through flesh and piercing the heart
Our children always bear some pain, as we did
from the pages of their childhood, never perfect
torn out and thrown at us one by one
I am not alone
I know I cannot be alone in this darkness
Wadded into a ball and shot like a slingshot
pages from the past
and so I
re examine the past
Vulnerability
traumas relived
Past cannot be re written
the goodness, richness and sacrifices cast aside leaving only the sad bits to rehash
I long to be seen for every bit of it
not just what hurt
A multitude of treasures lie in wait
that trunk must open too
the gems on those pages are ready for viewing
thick with story and wonders galore
Solstice
12/13/2022
The seeds of wisdom are deeply planted
Protected, sealed within
It is time to nourish and nurture and turn inward
Toward these last days of the deepest darkness
Before the tide turns toward more light at winter solstice
Enjoy these days of inner work
Rest
Soften and sink into them with
the same enthusiasm as the days of spring
an enthusiasm for quietude and restoration
joy in the sweet music of stillness winter brings
absorb the flavors of richness within
as the seed itself is rich with the vibrant lusciousness
of becoming a tree
~Christine
Protected, sealed within
It is time to nourish and nurture and turn inward
Toward these last days of the deepest darkness
Before the tide turns toward more light at winter solstice
Enjoy these days of inner work
Rest
Soften and sink into them with
the same enthusiasm as the days of spring
an enthusiasm for quietude and restoration
joy in the sweet music of stillness winter brings
absorb the flavors of richness within
as the seed itself is rich with the vibrant lusciousness
of becoming a tree
~Christine
New Moon
7/28/2022
Today is a new moon in Leo. New moons are time for new beginnings.
Time to grasp a fresh slate and start anew. Yes, we can embrace every morning as marker to do the same, but the potency of this darkness stirs something deep within the sacred cauldron of the belly where life begins, creativity stirs.
What are you seeking, what seed do you wish to plant? Do you have an intention or sankalpa? Does it need updating or igniting? Today is the day for it. Tonight is the night. Take time when you have time.
Take a seat, close your eyes or find a soft gaze and surround yourself with a column of soft light. Tether yourself to the earth through your central channel. You are safe and held and protected. Your column of light can go down deep into the core of the earth mother.
What is it that calls to you in your life right now?
Allow, soften, do not force anything.
What do you see? Let it grow and imagine it into being as part of you in present time. Believe it is so.
So be it
Time to grasp a fresh slate and start anew. Yes, we can embrace every morning as marker to do the same, but the potency of this darkness stirs something deep within the sacred cauldron of the belly where life begins, creativity stirs.
What are you seeking, what seed do you wish to plant? Do you have an intention or sankalpa? Does it need updating or igniting? Today is the day for it. Tonight is the night. Take time when you have time.
Take a seat, close your eyes or find a soft gaze and surround yourself with a column of soft light. Tether yourself to the earth through your central channel. You are safe and held and protected. Your column of light can go down deep into the core of the earth mother.
What is it that calls to you in your life right now?
Allow, soften, do not force anything.
What do you see? Let it grow and imagine it into being as part of you in present time. Believe it is so.
So be it